Topaz Mommy

Topaz Mommy and Babinski Mama met when they were in Grade 1.

80’s + Bangs = Me.

(L-R) 3rd in top row: Topaz Mommy; 6th in second row: Babinski Mama

A few weeks ago,  Topaz Mommy gave birth to the healthiest and cutest baby boy in town!

I read her Facebook status a few days after giving birth and she seemed to be getting the baby blues. I knew exactly what she’s feeling. I felt it when I gave birth to my first. That having a newborn is not at all like a Johnson’s baby commercial where everything is painfully perfect. The long nine-month wait was nothing but smoke and mirrors! I felt betrayed.

Then with my second baby, I felt it again. I wrote an entry about it in November 2007:

I’m a brand-new mom all over again and I’m lacking confidence. Even the most mundane task like going to the grocery scares me. Where do I put the older child? In the main basket? If I do that where does the food go? It’s giving me a mild panic attack. Since we’re planning to have an eyebrow-raising four children, yes you heard me, it would really depend on, one, whether we could swing it financially, and two, my mental stability.
Speaking of mental stability I had post-partum with the Bear. I found the first 48 hours after giving birth pretty easy. But then reality hit me like a truck on the third day when I had enough strength to stand up after that painful operation for breastfeeding time. Frankly, there was no halleluiah moment, no chorus in the air when all the while I thought that upon seeing your newborn there would be angels with golden trumpets singing, “Hallelujah! Hallelujah… Hallelujah…” in the background. And when the nurse handed me the small Bear all 6.8 lbs. and led me to the breastfeeding room, a group of mothers were already there feeding their babies. I scanned the room wishing I had the corner area instead because I was struggling to do the cradle position with the small Maxiebear in my arms and didn’t want to make it too obvious, terrified that I might break her little bones. I wanted to cry. What have I gotten into? On the fourth day when bff Iya visited me in the house, I remember telling her, “Is this all there is to motherhood? Where has my life gone?” …To think I’ve only been a mother for 96 hours. But then you see, having our very first newborn became a milestone that fills me with great joy and once again makes me believe that, yes, there is a light at the end of the newborn tunnel.

Photo by topazmommy.blogspot.com. Mommy & Baby are using Woodland Friends and Wheels Receiving Blankets.

HALLELUJAH!

Glad you enjoyed the gifts Mommy… He’s a real Babinski Baby! You’ve been blessed with so much.

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